We all have to start somewhere, right?
Wouldn’t it be great if we could all wake up one morning and write either like Jane Austen or Charles Dickenson? Wouldn’t it be amazing to query for the first time and get an agent on the spot? Wouldn’t it be a dream come true if your novel gets published within the first year of you writing it?
The answer: yes, it would.
Well, if by chance that happened, none of us would have a story to tell. We wouldn’t have to worry about getting published, or if whether we’re any good at what we do. And although writing is a passion, we’re all obliged to start somewhere, work our way up, and fight for what we want to achieve, right?
So, this is my story (thus far):
My first completed novel was a dystopian Sci Fi – which can currently be found on Wattpad under the name, A Renegades Tale: The Keep. Back then, I was so psyched to finish it, that I immediately began querying after just one draft.
Nearly eighty rejections rolled in, leaving me absolutely gutted. One after the other, composed of an empty rejection, written cold and offside. Here and there I received a ‘the story holds potential’ and ‘maybe in a few years?‘, but either way, I was down in the dumps.
Yep, you know that feeling.
Was I not good enough? Maybe. Back then.
After nearly a month of sitting back, feeling sorry for myself, I scraped together said book and gave it a read. IT WAS TERRIBLE! Suddenly all of the criticisms made sense, and for the first time I realized what a pile of rubbish I had written. (You know, that wretched first draft . . . )
Anyway, after taking a break, I tossed it.
Simple. As. That. (Don’t worry, as I am posting it on Wattpad, and is indeed editing along the way!)
So, I spent the next the six months reading, writing an researching all could. I constructed a brand new world with forests, animals, tribes, monarchy and outlandish traditions. And let me tell you, after the first draft was finished, I loved it! I’m currently busy with the third draft, and right about now, the doubts are rolling in. I doubt whether or not I’ll be enough.
Will people want to read my book?
How can I compete with all the other writers out there?
These questions are the ghosts haunting my thoughts, but like any writer, I have to work through them. And I do. Honestly, these questions keep me going. They push me to better myself and my writing.
I am Marilize Loxton, an aspiring author.
And I will not give up.